Are there things that I want? Indeed there are a plenty. I look around and see all that I have and find no excuse to not be satisfied with it. There is nothing that I need today. I am thirty. I have a house, a car, a great job, a loving and supportive family, a beautiful healthy child, and friends that would walk over coals to come to my rescue if need be. All things I have acquired through my life, through good times and bad, in sickness and in health, through better or for poor. At any given time, I could lose any one of these things; I am thankful for today.
Tomorrow, I will watch my son eagerly tear open every present under the tree. This evening, he said to me, "Mama, aren't you so excited that Santa is coming and he is going to bring us all both presents?" I said, "Well, Santa brings presents to boys and girls, he doesn't bring them to old people. My present is to see how happy you are when you open them." I could see his mind racing, contemplating what I had said, and wondering how that could compare. He said, "Well, you can help me open mine."
All day, I haven't quite been able to pinpoint where this sudden jolt of happiness had come from. At this moment, it finally dawned on me. I briefly recalled Christmas mornings as a child, running into my parents' bedroom to wake them. I never once thought of going to the tree and looking at the gifts first. Instinctly, I ran straight to where my Mom was, and woke her...so that she could be there with me. All the commotion, all the holly-balooz and bustling of that season; and like auto-pilot, there I was...with my parents...and my sister...every Christmas morning.
I am more excited on this day than I ever was as a child. I am so happy and fortunate to be in a position to be able to provide for my son, all year round...and especially...provide him all of these extra things on Christmas. People always say, "Christmas is for the kids" and today I beg to differ. I feel like it is Christmas morning all over again, only this time, it is magnifide by all of the people, things, and accomplishments that I've made in my life over the last twenty something years. My biggest accomplishment being my son.
Jack, Christmas morning, 2008
You People are all So Selfless:
You People are all So Selfless:
My friend Melanie set aside a special gift for me and asked me to open it tomorrow morning with Jack, so that I would have something to open.
My Mom had me over earlier this evening, and let Jack and I taste test the brissoulini and lasagna for tomorrow's feast - ahead of everyone else - so I wouldn't have to cook dinner tonight.
My Sister ran around like a chicken with her head cut off to find the last gift on my list for Jack - without the time to do it myself, and helped me with a few other things like wrapping, because that's "F-ing Teamwork!"
My friend Greg ignored my "I only need to get a few things" and accompanied me on a two hour grocery shopping trip, in a blizzard - dropping me off at the door, carrying the bags in, and scraping the car several times in the process.
My friend Brian had a package waiting for me on my porch with the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen, and some media of which I cannot wait to find the time to give my undivided attention.
S G...thanks for eluding that you care, because I know how hard that is sometimes :)
To all of you people in my life: Thank you for thinking of me and helping me through some of the best and worst times of my life. It ain't easy doing it alone...and today, I've realized that I'm not...and I haven't been. I am so lucky - no gift could compare. My son is fortunate to be surrounded by family and friends who will help teach him the same...that no gift compares to a simple happiness.
Merry Christmas to All and to All a Good Night!